There are songs I listen to late at night, not be sad but rather verses to coincide
with my feelings and thoughts. I don`t seek sympathy but sometimes the words
and music helps me express what`s in my heart.
It helps me to release what builds up inside, the one thing I want to do is be strong for Jerry and not break down in front of her. Therefore it`s my way of getting things out, if that makes any sense.
She has been so courageous throughout all her times of pain that I must not falter
in my support and care. It`s very hard to hold it together when I hold her hand and look into her eyes but so far I`ve been able to maintain.
I don`t know which would be worse, to lose someone in a moment or watch them fade slowly. But, I do know that every minute of every day is special and we both are thankful for the times we had and whatever time is left.
No matter how I look at it, I`ve been blessed beyond measure that she came into my life. There are others that are coping with similar circumstances and my heart goes out to them . Words can`t really convey the gamut of emotions we go through as mere words can never say what`s in the heart no matter how hard we try but they are all we have.
So whatever any of us are going through, have faith , be resilient and know that it
is part of God`s perfect plan . Why do I believe in God ? He sent me an angel,
straight from the heavens.